★DyDyMiiRa★

Early morming wasn't sexy;
once you were out of bed,
the weight of the day pressed too hard on everyone's conscience.
alot of work to be done today.
thanks to mom, i couldn't get a hold of my blanket much longer.
no bargaining or whatsoever.
off to pay up the bills.. yea right.. bills..
headed to loyang sec to collect my pathetic 'O' level result..
baby went off to work..
now, rotting at home.. with nothing much to be done..
but ponder over things left behind.. for quite some time..
just let me clarify the uncertainties of you people out there okay?

first and foremost,
for me to link my friend back to my list is harmless..
isn't it?
anyway, i never had to forgive her for saying - or doing- the wrong thing..
because she never did anything to deliberately hurt me..
(in my point of view lurhh kan..)
moreover, what happened is done for..
and i removed her from my list out of frustration..
that's all..
and it ends there..
no grudges or anything..
so girl, i know there were times that my words were too overboard..
guess... i owe you an apology,..
though we have ended it long ago,
you were never my enemy..
a friend it is..

Next, every song in the radio was about heartbreak..
it seemed, of sort of one another,,
was a breakup central all along the FM dial..
and talking about this,
i have something in relation to it...
which some..
couldn't get it over and done with..
for the last time,
im telling you this..

I'VE MOVED ON AND I NO LONGER NEED MY PAST!!!!!!

if it wasn't big enough..
you ppl are really sick in the brain..
i know, for some reasons,
girls like me will end up sulking cause nth is left to be done..
there's nth that i can do to stop him from leaving..
there will be time that i couldn't get thru those awful days right after he took off..
the fantasies about the two of us being together...
the sick realisation that he might never love you again..
or never even did in the first place...
bt my outrage faded to a slow burn as the days passed..

I DON'T DWELL ON THIS STUFF ALL THE TIME!!

im not saying dat it is easy to forget everything..
because i know, jilted gfs are considered physchotic losers when the bf haf really moved on..
no matter how much i tried running from the fact,
nth werks for me..
all the more..i felt the pain...
i wouldn't go to the extent of asking my ex to pay for dumping me..
or even play absurd mind games with the girl that he'd left me for..
the best way out is to cherish the ones im living with now..
cos they were the ones hu makes my life worthwhile..
moreover,
whatever that i had in the past with him, is far too messy to be dealt with..
and i didn't know whr to start with..
in any case, i am more than fine without them...

NOBODY PLANS TO FAIL.. BUT ONLY FAILS TO PLAN...

to me now, nth else is impt but my family, future and how i want to lead my life..
there's no way that i would want to rewind time..

with this,
i would end the post by saying,