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Sunday, May 24, 2009
My mind has never been so affected like this before.. 9 January 2007 First it was my Aunt, hu took care of me when i was born till i completed my kindergarden.. She's dear to me and she's willing to take any risks and make sacrifices just to make me feel contented.. 2 years has passed...and she stays in my mind.. but this was not the end.. 9 February 2008 A year aft her death, was followed by my dad.. Again, it's somebody who has worked hard to support the family.. someone who never fails to motivate me whenever im feeling rather down.. he was the source of encouragement for me to study hard... without him around, i stoop down low.. so low that i couldn't get a hold of myself.. and everything i once had.. is gone... i still remember the phrase said by the doctor.. "im sorry..but i have to tell you this..i hope you will stay strong.. your father........................................ couldn't be save on time.. he passed away minutes ago......................." imagine if you were in my shoes.. what will you do? what will your thoughts be like? what are you going to say to your mom? since you are the first person to know... the feeling that i had during the day itself was..........indescribable.. and yet..it didn't stop here... On the 23 MAY 2009 just the day before today... i was astounded by the shock given by my sister.. telling me, that my grandfather has passed away.. it was about 3 plus in the morning..not noon.. that i was woken up by her....... the day before 23rd May, was my FIRST AND THE LAST VISIT for him.. met shaheen there cos she got attachment... but seriously.. my thoughts wasn't to the extent of thinking that he will be going away any time soon.. even i was told by the nurses below that, the DIL room, the room he was admitted to.. was meant for those 'Dying cases'.. But at night....about 11 plus sis returned home from work.. bringing the news that nobody would ever want to hear... she said.. "mak blg aku yang atuk cume tinggal 10% chances of living.." from then on, i prayed hard..hoping that a miracle would happen though the chances is very small.. unfortunately, at 3 plus...... he gave away his last breath............ i pity mom.. cos she has lost a total of 3 person, with the relations that is far more closer than what i had.. she has lost her sister....her husband.......and her own father....... i can imagine how she would feel.. and its an irony how things happened.. everything was like....without us realising though we were with them.... and the years..is one after another.. and the date..was the same fer my dad and aunt.. as for my grandfather, 23 may..the date 23...happened to fall on my birthdate..... and i used to celebrate my birthday with him.. (cos his was on the 25th) now that he's gone...on the very day itself.. i dun think i wanna have anymore birthday parties.. cos celebrating it is equivalent to celebrating his death........ so yea.. sorry QEELAH, AMIN, JEFFRI and FAZA.. i didn't get to turn up for the walkathon... and sorry once again to the rest... cos i didn't get to go the pit that you all have organised.. something unexpected has occurred.. and i hope that.....there won't be more.. dats it for today... -END OF POST- 8:43 PM
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